Dumped

Today I was dumped. It didn't take long. It took me a while to realise what was going on. He was just next to me. Lying next to me. Cuddling me up. WHy did this happen? I don't know. Maybe it's me. I am not a good person. I am flirtatious. I can be promiscuous. I haven't been so for the past month, but yes I can be. But I can change. I am doing my best to change. Why? I guess I am doomed. It's me. I fall in love too fast. Before you know it, he's scared and he runs away. Why didn't I learn from my lessons? Why did he do this? Why?!!

I am not well. I pretend to be well. But I am not. I am not the sort of person who just needs to be with someone. Anyone. NO! I am not the sort who wants a relationship for relationship's sake. And I really fell in love. I feel horrible. I may have done some wrong things, but... am I doomed to a life of solitude because of this? WHY????!!!!!! I never meant to hurt anyone.

I guess if he's happier without me, then so be it. I have to let go...